Hurricane Irma Retrospective

A year ago Hurricane Irma came by for a visit. Over the last few days I've been reading my Instagram posts from then and decided to compile them here. Looking back I wish I had documented more, like how our evacuation drive took 14 hours instead of 7, about the way Miles was in awe of the Georgia landscape, about how I had never felt that level of physical anxiety before, about how good pancakes cooked on a grill really are. I should go back and fill in the gaps. Things like this should be remembered.  

September 5, 2017
A thunderstorm came through this evening with lots of wind and rain. Later it was cool and calm and there was a peacefulness I'd been searching for all day. We will be getting ready for hurricane Irma and I will be clinging to the calm I felt tonight. I will hold onto it as we collect our supplies and revisit it with every decision we make. I will take it out several times a day if only to remind me that it's there. I will share with those around me and pray it is enough.

September 6
Hurricane observations: 1. There are far too many armchair weathermen 2. I know having advance warning is good, but advance warning with so much uncertainty is killer 3. People have forgotten how to Google. 4. Plans and emotions can change at least 5 times a day

September 7
We left at 3 this morning. Headed to Georgia. From the outside looking in it seems like making the decision to leave would be easy. It's not. There are too many factors, too many what ifs, too many unknowns. There are traffic and gas, hotel and money issues. Many have chosen to leave. Many are choosing to stay. Many more have no choice but to stay. We are all doing the best we can. Florida friends, we love you and we'll see you all on the other side of Irma.

September 8
It is beautiful here in the middle of Georgia. We are staying in a houseful of strangers who will no longer be strangers after this. M is napping beside me and I'm trying to do the same but mind will not let me. My body is here. My heart is there.

September 9
{And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine}

September 10
Lord, cover our homes and hiding places. Give us the strength to face the storm and the peace of knowing we're not alone.

September 11 
A weeks worth of waiting is coming to an end. The storm has passed our home in south Florida and even though there is plenty of devastation in the area it seems our place and our friends homes made it through with minimal damage. The power went out this morning here in Georgia as Irma continues her move inland. At this point we've all thrown our share of tantrums, cried uncountable tears, and lost days of sleep, but we can see the other side and I'm so glad it's here.

September 15
We got home yesterday and thankfully have power and water. There were some minor leaks but they are easily taken care of. Not far from us people are still waiting for power, have water restrictions and sewer issues. Food and supplies are limited. Homes and lives were lost. I'm feeling lucky and guilty and exhausted and helpless so tonight I baked because chocolate chip cookies make the world feel just a little bit better.

Dear Second Baby (I've Learned Some Things)

I’m sitting in the same rocking chair I used to hold and feed your brother in. It’s classic, wooden, painted in soft yellow. It came from a distant relative and its history started somewhere in Florida, hauled to Kansas after the relative passed away, then to Colorado to your brother’s nursery. We brought it back to Florida two years ago, apparently it knew where its home is.
  
I've thought about getting a new one. Something bigger, softer, more modern. But I realized I don’t need a new one, I just need to modify this one a bit to make it better. I’ll get a pillow for the top, so it’s not so uncomfortable if we drift off to sleep together. I’ll find a better footstool that doesn’t leave my back aching after a thirty minute feed.

You see, I’ve learned some things.

The chair is sitting in the corner our bedroom. It’s next to a poor-man’s dresser I made out of plastic cube shelves and fabric bins that hold your tiny clothes. The other corner is for your bed. I’ve hung heat and noise blocking curtains and a bible verse print. There’s not a good space in this house for your own room so you’ll have to put up with us for awhile. I know your brother had his own, a room I spent weeks on getting just right. We brought him home and he slept in ours for four months.

You see, I’ve learned some things.

The first time around I registered for all the things to fill up all the space. Then there were the hand-me-downs, the random gifts, and we did indeed fill your brother’s room with stuff. But there were toys that were never played with, clothes never worn. I’m being more mindful this time about what you and I and we truly need.

You see, I’ve learned some things.

Yes, you will come into this world with less stuff, less space, but no less room for love. 

Love in Three Parts

I sat on the white chair in the front room, the faux leather one with the scratches in the seat from where the dog had tried to make it more comfortable. I was seven months pregnant and eating a stack of golden Oreos. The May afternoon sun was streaming in through the open blinds of the picture window. My husband was on the chaise lounge, but he wasn’t relaxed. We need to talk, he said.

Read more at Coffee & Crumbs.

When You Can’t Be Home for the Holidays

We’re at my grandparents’ house on the farm, just a few short miles from ours. My siblings, cousins, and I are at the kids table, making jokes and stealing each other’s food. The adults are in the dining room, no doubt having some boring adult conversation. There are seconds and thirds and then it’s time for pie, but not before you tell Grandma what you’re thankful for this year. I always go for the pumpkin, of course, but there’s also apple, maybe cherry. My uncles head downstairs to watch football and there’s a good chance Grandpa and Dad are already taking a nap. The dishes have been started ⎼ Mom washing, Aunt drying, Grandma putting away.

Read more at Sarasota Mom's Blog.